I'm a little late today for a number of reasons. First of which was my inability to go to sleep last night. I'm about to be very candid and I'm sure some of you will try to reach out but please read everything first. The main reason I couldn't sleep last night was because I was contemplating suicide and trying my best not to contemplate it. It was a pretty epic battle in my head. I would run through all the different ways I could do it, then I would come up with counterarguments about why that way wasn't the right way. I spent a lot of time thinking about writing about what was going on in my head just so I could get it out of my head, but I just couldn't get out of bed at that point which was probably for the best because exhaustion finally took over around 2 in the morning. Life one out this time and I'm in a good state of mind right now. I'm simply taking this one day at a time and I will work the problem as it arises.
This all stems from the fact that I'm clearly a burden on the majority of people around me. I asked someone to give me a days notice and a time frame of when they would be picking my mom up and they just won't do it. I'm asking for too much and the only way in my head to get around that at this point is to leave this life. With my mom being in the high state of dementia that she is in, she won't miss me at all and in fact wouldn't even know that I was gone. I won't be missed. With the Schnuggie gone it's only Morty left and if he goes I honestly don't see myself far behind. He is the glue that is holding me to this realm right now. Will that change and more will hold me here, I don't know but I'm tired of burdening everyone with being me. I'm just really tired.
I did make a point today to go see a friend of mine. One, like basically all of my friends, I haven't seen him in months. Once again, I'm a terrible friend because I just can't go out and make time for my friends, but I did today, which is another reason why this is late. I had no idea of what amount of time I had to hang out, so I just decided that I would hang until someone contacted me saying I needed to be back. It was a good visit, and I'm glad I went. I was also thankful I could go without giving him any notice. I would have been great to plan something like a cookout, or to go someplace, but I had no notice that I was even going to do that, and if I did, I wouldn't know how much time I had to planning anything would have just ended in disappointment. This also makes me tired. I'm just really really tired.
On to a little update. I'm slowly working on the paw print mold of the Schnuggie. The epoxy is taking much more time than I expected, but it is looking good.
You can't tell from the photo but there is a clear gloss epoxy on there, that makes it shine. I'll get a better picture when it's all done. Oh, I nearly forgot. I was checking the mail earlier this week and got an envelope from the vet. Inside was a condolence card signed by all the employees from the vet, it was a very nice surprise. Inside of the card was a smaller card. I didn't think much about it while I was reading the little notes from everybody. When I was done I pulled the card out and turned it over and was punched in the gut. It was an ink paw print from The Schnuggie. I completely lost it and nearly collapsed to the floor in the kitchen. I was not expecting that. I immediately walked out and hugged Morty for about a half an hour. I don't have a picture of it for you because I haven't been able to bring myself to look at it again, but when I do, I'm thinking of getting a small frame so that I can hang it near my chair. The Schnuggie used to always lay right next to my chair so that I could reach down and pet her. This will be my way of having her near me again.
I'm just going to call it a day here. Oh, I'm editing this right after I posted because I did forget one thing. If you subscribed to the email list this will probably be your final email. Google is no longer going to send them out after this month and unless I right a new post before the 30th, this is it. I do post a link on Facebook but if you don't want to go that route (and I don't blame you), I will always try to have this posted every Sunday by 5PM eastern standard time. There is no Favorite Thing of the Week for me this week. Once again, I'm going to take each day as it comes and do my best to fight through it. I still have Morty and that is a lot Peace in and goodnight.
Although this week started out with the potential to be a complete disaster ( I know, what's new with that ), but I'm finishing it off in a good state of mind for a change. One reason may be because I made it to Record Store day despite the person that was supposed to come and allow me to do that was a no show. I contacted a couple of local record stores to see if they would even be getting in the Dee Gees album Hail Satin. One of them wasn't getting it, but the other told me they were going to have 7 copies and that the doors opened at 8 AM. A little bonus if you were there early, they were doing a raffle for anyone in line at 7:30 for a $50 gift card. Turns out they threw in a second place price of a $25 dollar gift card. Before you ask, no I didn't win. I missed the $50 by 2 tickets. Doesn't matter though, I got what I wanted.
Behold the glory that is the Dee Gees album Hail Satin. I have not listened to it yet. I'm waiting for just the right time for that. I also scored an old ABBA album Super Troupers. That happens to be my favorite album by ABBA and since it was old stuff, they were having 20% off yesterday. Still probably cost more than it originally sold but $14 isn't bad for some good old school vinyl.
I do have to tell you about my experience there, because it is worth telling. My plan was to wake up super early, get ready and head to the store by 6 AM. I was figuring that if I got there and was within the first 7 people in line, I had the album in the bad. Well, I was number 5 in line. Oh yeah, I should tell you the need for having to get there early for the album. The woman that I contacted also said that a lot of people were asking her about that particular album. It was a last minute addition to RSD (Record Store Day) and people that knew about it, knew it was a pretty big deal. Fortunate for me, the people that showed up early in line didn't even know about it, but I did make 2 extra sales for them on that day. The people in line were great. They were all vinylphiles, not really sure if that is a term, but I'm going with it. They weren't the super snobbish people you've heard about, they were all really cool and had no judgment. It didn't matter what you were there for, it was all about experiencing music in it's best actual media format. I say media, because an actual live performance will alway be the true best, but vinyl is the pinnacle of sound. There were some people there with targeted tastes, you know the ones that only want one particular genre of music, but even they were all about the experience of music. There were also a few collectors there that just wanted whatever had the best chance of inflating in price. I heard them talk about a Taylor Swift album that was released for the June 12 RSD that is now going for over $300. The shop let 6 people in at a time, so I was the second person to pick up a copy of Hail Satin. The first was one of the guys I was talking to about what it actually was. The next person to pick one up was behind me in line. I was talking to the woman about it and she was telling me about how it was that last minute addition to the RSD lineup, and that most stores weren't getting it in. I told her about how I contacted other stores and that she was the only one in the area with it. She also said she was limited to those 7 copies so it's going to be a pretty rare album. When the dude behind me heard that, he grabbed it as fast as he could. He was a big metal guy, but one of those sausagefest metal guys. I'm not trying to slam him for that, it's just some people like an aggressive form of music that only attracts crowds of dudes. You know, Metallica, Megadeth, Disturbed, Avenged Sevenfold. All talented musicians with some great songs, but those people normally turn their noses up to the Foo Fighters, saying that they are pop rock. I'm sure he grabbed it as an investment potential, but maybe, just maybe he will give it a listen and enjoy a new type of music.
Another reason for me being in a good mood is that I'm right in the middle of a 72+hr fast. This is the first one in a year. I've missed these fasts. They do make me feel really good, not to mention the health benefits you get from it. You know, the whole reboot at the cellular level thing. I took this screenshot just as I was sitting down to write this.
That is of course from my Fast Habit app. I don't pay for the app, so I can only go as high as 24 hrs as the set point, which is why it says that it ends at 5:02 PM. The plan as of right now is to break my fast on Tuesday morning. That would put me around the 84 hour mark. That is if I ate at 5 in the morning, but I will probably wait until 8 at the earliest.
I have done it a little different than times in the past. Normally I would load all my water up with salt and then take a magnesium supplement in the evening to help with sleep. This time I've skipped the majority of the salt and went with cans of Liquid Death as my primary source of water. I have taken a few more essential supplements because I haven't been getting in the electrolytes from all the salt, so I've thrown two different magnesiums in the mix, with some zinc and GABA. Don't ask me what GABA stands for, I really don't want to look it up, but it's good stuff and doesn't break a fast. The major benefit of that is that it helps prevent muscle breakdown during a fast. Now, the amount of muscle you can potentially lose from a fast depends on how long you have fasted how hard you treat yourself during that fast. All that being said, it's still not a great deal of muscle to begin with. The length does take a toll on your body, which is the main purpose of doing it. Putting your body in stress can create some really exciting results later on. Remember the affects of any fast aren't really finalized until days and sometimes weeks later. Back to that length thing. the longer you go the longer your body goes without building blocks, aka protein. That will cause the body to want to use it's best source of protein for that protein and that would be your muscle, but that takes a very long time, much more than 3 days. The harder you treat your body takes a toll as well. If you go out and do wind-sprints several times a day and lift super heavy, you are going to cause that muscle breakdown even faster. Fasting workouts should be low impact. That will stimulate everything, keeping it active and ready to go when it starts getting fed again. So, don't think you are doing yourself any favors by doing very difficult workouts when you are fasting, because they are going to take you backwarrds. Save those for short term intermittent fasting days, and do them at the end of your fast to get the most out of them.
Ok, a few pictures form the garden to show you how things are exploding with flowers.
The first one is the completed garden. I do need to get some lights for it, and I need to get that epoxy on the Schnugg's paw print. The second is a plant called meteor shower, which is just an awesome name. Number 3 is Blue My Mind, and it lives up to its name, and last is a plant I can't remember but the flowers are so pretty.
Now this picture is I believe the Turmeric making another comeback. if you remember last year that plant came back from nothing and it appears that it is doing it again. I really hope I can get it to flower this year, because the flower is pretty epic.
Two photos of food items, because I consider these a pretty good score. The first aren't exactly great for you, but better than a sugary snack, and they taste remarkably like the original.
I was expecting them to have some kind of chemical taste to them, but these were down right delicious. I have limited myself to only 1 a day, which breaks down to around 33 calories and 1 net carb.. The bag says 0 net carbs for 1, but that is rounding down, and that doesn't really work in nutrition. Anyway, if you want a tasty treat, with very little quilt, give these a try.
Next comes a meat treat. Yes, I'm kind of like a dog and I need a meat snack from time to time. Found these today, so I haven't tried them, but I can tell you that it is very difficult to smoked sausage sticks that don't have sugar. They usually use cane sugar, which if you are going to have sugar, that would be the best natural source for it. I've always like Tillamook so I'm expecting these to be pretty good. I can tell you that their ice cream and ice cream sandwiches are out of this world, and their cheese is fantastic as well.
Favorite Thing of the Week is of course that album up above so I have nothing else left to tell you today. Peace in and goodnight.
This week did not go anywhere near as I had hoped it would. If you saw the Monday post, which not at all planned, you saw that I lost my precious Schnuggie. That alone made it a rough week, but things got a little better when I got her remains back on Thursday. That was the final highlight of the week and I'm glad it's now coming to an end so I can begin again tomorrow. More on the misery later.
I had the Schnuggie cremated, I just couldn't bear the thought of transporting her body back to the house for a backyard burial. I'm still shattered over losing her, but I'm getting better. Part of the cremation process was getting a lock of her hair and a paw print. That paw print gave me an idea, since I'm revamping the garden. I'm going to dedicate the garden to The Schnug, and place the paw print in a location of prominence. I'm going to have to put some epoxy on it to protect it from the weather first, but I think it will make a nice addition to Gauge's Garden.
The Schnugg always liked laying near the garden, mostly because there was shade at one end of it, but I think it's fitting for it to be her garden from now on.
This is the current state of Gauge's Garden. I was a little short on my mulch so I do need to get another bag to finish it all off, but it looks pretty good. So far, the string lights do not work, but I might have done something wrong, so I'll go back and check things out and see if it was a complete worthless purchase or not. It's a disappointing, but not unexpected since it was Wish purchase. Pay a couple bucks for lights they may just not work. I may just end up going back to the Harbor Freight rope lights.. The ones I got from Wish were multicolored LEDs so they were going to look real neat, but you can't always get what you want.
As you can see the Desert Rose is doing great, despite still being in it's nursery pot. Yes, I still haven't found the right pot for it. I'll find it, it's just going to take me much much longer than I thought it would. That photo was taken this morning. Thought I would share, because it's one of the few good things about this week.
When I woke up yesterday it was very quiet in my mom's room, so I decided to just let her sleep a little while longer than normal. When I finally walked in, I found her laying on her side with her head under the bed. I think I actually woke her up when I got near her. I asked what she was doing on the floor, to which she replied, "I'm not on the floor." I asked her if she was hurt and she said no, so I tried to slide her out from under the bed. That was met with cries of pain, so I immediately stopped, and asked her if she could roll over on her back. She wasn't able to do that at all, so I had to call an ambulance. EMTs showed up and after much crying out, were able to get her up and into a chair. They checked her out, and although she was holding her left shoulder very weird, they believed she was ok, but I wanted to be safe and asked them to transport her to the hospital, but since I'm not medical power of attorney, I can't really make that call and they have to go by her wishes. She wanted nothing to do with riding in the ambulance, so they offered to help get her into my car and I could take her to the ER. I ended up taking her to a different hospital since the EMTs told me that the usual one I would take her to, had been very busy that morning. The new hospital is exactly that, a new hospital. It was very nice, and rather reassuring that despite this state being incredibly backwards when it comes to Covid, everyone was wearing a mask without complaint. I do believe we got into a room sooner than we would at the usual hospital, but the wait was still insanely long. After a few hours the doctor came in, then it took another hour before X-rays and CT scan, and then another 2 hours after that before the doctor and discharge came through. My anxiety was at an intense level, but there is an added reason to that, which I will get to in a second. The X-rays and CT scan showed the my mom was ok. There is the possibility of a bone break in her shoulder but there is literally nothing they can do about it anyway. If it is anything it's a chip at the tip of her shoulder. They couldn't find any bone fragments so they don't know if it is a fresh break or a deformity of the bone or what have you. My mom isn't feeling any pain, but that could be in large part to the dementia itself.
This visit to the ER has made my exponential harder to deal with. She has been very argumentative since coming home, including something as silly as arguing that her shoe isn't her shoe. There's other things, but they are too graphic to go over in this post. I'll just deal like I always do, but I would really appreciate it if someone else in this family would finally step up and do a little more. I'm not going to go off on a rant because it's just a waste of time and I'll be told it's all my fault anyway, but when I was told by someone at the beginning of this that we all need to come together to help out my mom, it seems like all that meant was I need to do everything and everyone else can tell me how I made that decision to do that. There I'm done with that.
So my morning plan yesterday was let her sleep in a bit so I could put some of that Arctic Fox (more on arctic foxes later) let it sit a bit, wake her up, get her in the shower and giver her breakfast and by the time all that was done it would be time to rinse out the dye. Well, that didn't happen. I put the dye in let it sit and then went in to get her and all hell broke loose. I had to leave the dye in the entire time I was at the ER, which was around 5 hours. There are some negatives and positives to all of this. The negatives are the addition to my already walking into a hospital anxiety with the new anxiety of what this dye was doing to me being on for way way too long. This also caused a slight itch to my beard which was very annoying under my mask, which also added to my anxiety. The singular plus is the incredible hold of color I have from leaving it in that long. The itch lasted through the night but seems to be gone now, but I'm expecting the worst with that. If nothing more happens, then it's a plus plus, but like I said, I'm expecting the worst. No I don't have a picture, maybe I'll get one tomorrow and save it for next week.
Before I get into Favorite Thing of the Week, I really should have put this above when I was talking about the Schnuggie. Even though I didn't get the time I had expected to get with her, knowing full well the my time would be short considering that she was an older dog at 7 when I adopted her, I wouldn't change a thing. To answer your next question, yes, I will eventually adopt another dog, and yes it will be an older dog. I feel that older dogs appreciate being adopted much more than younger dogs, plus there is the fact that people overlook those older dogs and miss out on what they truly have to offer. I'm also going to get on my high horse and recommend that you at the very least adopt if you are looking for a pet. I would hope that you would give an older animal a chance, but if you can't just do your best to adopt. If you can't adopt a pet right now, but still want to do something to help out and look stylish while doing it, I'm going to recommend a sunglasses purchase. My favorite sunglass company Goodr is teaming up with Wags & Walks which is an organization that works to place dogs in homes to get them out of kill shelters. Goodr is putting 100% of proceeds from these awesome sunglasses towards Wags & Walks, so you can help out an look incredible awesome at the same time. Just follow this link Cool Sunglasses and give them a peep. I must mention that Goodr makes some quality sunglasses at a real affordable price. Most of the pictures you see me in wearing sunglasses are my Goodr sunglasses. They have multiple styles, but I personally prefer the wayfarer style that the make. They call them OGs.
Ok, it's on to Favorite Thing of the Week. I'm bringing back some music, but I really need a boost this week, so this is going to be Favorite Things of the Week. I have two songs for you and one picture. This is where that arctic fox comes in. Just check this out.
That is an arctic fox shedding it's fur for summer. How freaking cute, yet badass is that? I do believe I've found my new spirit animal, and it's a shedding arctic fox.
Ok, First song this week for Favorite Songs of the Week belongs to none other than Twenty One Pilots. They just released a new video for their song "Saturday" and I'm going to share it with you right now. I would just like to point out that they always have a hidden message in their videos and songs, but there is one rather obvious one, which is Trash the dragon. Trash represents creativity, so when you see him and what he does, it's a pretty obvious statement, anyway, please enjoy TØP with their new song "Saturday".
The second Favorite Song of the Week is one that I didn't necessarily promised you, but I had really hoped to share with you at some point, and that is the official version of the Foo Fighters as the Dee Gee's doing their version of the Bee Gee's hit song "You Should Be Dancing".
I know the old Christopher Walken bit is calling for more cowbell, but Taylor puts exactly the right amount of cowbell in that song. Now that's the way to end a week. Watching this video truly had me the happiest I have been all week. I'm really looking forward to the whole album. Just a reminder this is part of Record Store day on July 17th. This is a 5 song EP titled Hail Satin by the Dee Gee's, which is the official Foo Fighters Bee Gee's cover band name. I know that seems like a lot, but aren't all things that are epic, just a little too much. Peace in and goodnight.
I had to write to give you an update today, because it was not the update I really wanted to give. I had to say goodbye to The Schnuggie this morning. I was able to get an appointment very early despite it being the same day. I took her in, knowing deep down in my heart that it very well could be the last time I see her. The growth was exactly what it always was, just a sak filled with fluid, and no impact on her breathing condition. That was something else entirely and it was my worst fear. As soon as the doctor came back in to show me the X-ray, I knew it as soon as it lit up. Her lungs were ravaged with cancer. I've been unfortunate in my life to see what cancer looks like on an X-ray far too many times to not recognize it right away. Before the doctor could even lay the options out to me, I had already made up my mind. I had made this decision a few days ago with the feeling that cancer could be involved, and when it was on this large of a scale there was no doubt in what had to be done. I didn't want The Schnuggie, my baby girl to suffer more than she had too.
The doctor brough The Schnuggie back in with the intravenous catheter in place so I could spend some time with her. As much as I wanted to spend all the time in the world with her, I knew that it was prolonging not only her pain, but mine as well. The doctor and a tech came in do administer the injection and The Schnuggie went peacefully as I stoked her back and gave her butt scratches. There was no incident and it was as if she just simply laid down to sleep.
This was the last photo I took of her as I was saying my farewell to her. She was such a special dog and I will miss her greatly. I know that she can finally fully relax the way I always wanted her too. I just hope that I gave her the best two years of her life and that she enjoyed her time in this house.
It's been a pretty miserable week, but I'm trying my best to end it on a high note. Let's get into why it's been so bad. Well, the Schnuggie is having some health problems and I'm worried. I need to try and make a vet appointment for tomorrow, tomorrow morning. She is having some labored breathing and the sak that usually fills with fluid on her cheek has migrated lower and might be causing the problem, or it maybe another kind of growth entirely. I thought it was the typical filling with blood and I would keep an eye on it to rupture then clean her and everything up as usual, but when the growth dropped lower and below her jawline, everything changed, and the problems began. With everything going on with her, I'm stressed out more than usual, then to top that off, since her schedule is all messed up from this, she is wandering around at night, which gets Morty needing to come in m room and get as close as humanly and caninely (is that even word? it is now) possible. Which means he gets on the bed and than collapses on top of me. This happens several times a night, and The Schnugg needs to go out in the middle of the night now. With all of this going on, my mom has been waking up and wandering during the night as well. Needless to say, I've gotten no more than a couple hours of sleep each night, with the exception of last night when I finally collapsed and couldn't wake up until 6 this morning.
All of this has gotten me searching out comfort foods, which means a whole lot of garbage. I have not eaten clean at all, but I have kept to eating windows, and limited my caloric consumption as to not overdo it. Even though my eating has been a disaster, I'm not a disaster yet. It takes much more than a week to do that. Still it does go faster than it did to take it off, but that's when you forget all about everything. I need you to know that one week, maybe even one month isn't going to ruin everything, it will put a damper on things, but you can overcome it, and I will as well. These aren't accountability photos, but they are kind of a check in, and also to show you my patriotic 4th outfit for the day.
Had to highlight my American Rebel Johnny Cash socks. They are pretty rad. As you can seed despite being an actual train wreck, I don't look like one. Still haven't made it to join that gym, I had different priorities this week, but I am on the verge of just giving up on overcoming my anxiety on that matter. Also, since I didn't get much sleep, I haven't hit the lake trail since Tuesday, so goal was not reached by a rather large margin this week. I'm going to chalk it up to a rest week, and try to get things back to normal this week. After I deal with the Schnuggie situation.
I did add the final plant to the garden, so now it's all about getting the new fencing and putting the string light up, and then filling in all the gaps with mulch. The final plant is a rose bush. I've wanted to try and grow roses for a long time now, but never had the right place for a bush until now. Since the garden is being overhauled, this is the perfect addition, and I've not only wanted roses, but I wanted a fragrant flower. None of the other ones give off any scent, so it's truly a joy to have something that you can grow and enjoy the oder of, as opposed to growing something that's going to melt your tongue and face.
If you remember back to the last photo, that plant at the bottom right was the berry cream from the pepper in a can challenge. It has already doubled and possibly tripled in size since transplanting. If you didn't notice, the Rose is dead center at the top. We've gotten quite a bit of rain lately, and that Rose is even fuller with more blooms on it right now. I'm going to try to get that fencing this week. If I'm lucky it will be the same white fencing that is already there, the problem with that is that it's dry rotted and starting to break and fall apart. A couple years in the sun have made it very brittle. I'm really looking forward to seeing if the new lights work. They were a Wish purchase, so chances may not be good, but they were cheap, I mean very cheap, and if they do work, they are going to be a pretty big deal for me. Hopefully I'll have completed garden pictures next week.
One last photo, which is kind of Favorite Thing, but I'm just going to make it a bonus FT this week. This is a can of Liquid Death Mountain Water in one of their paper bag type coozies. Their water is really great, and I love their tongue and cheek sense of humor about looking like a degenerate while simply murdering your thirst (no this is not a paid advertisement, I just really like their water?.
Give them a try some time. They are very environmentally conscious and all about recycling. I think they mention that 60% of their can is from recycled material, where as most of your plastic bottles are only about 10% if even that. They can't go full recycled material, due to it being weaker than newly forged aluminum, that's where the 40% comes in. Oh and the water is from the Alps, natural water from a natural source, not filtered, just good.
Ok, now that the plugging is out of the way, let's get to Favorite Things of the Week. See what I did there? I made it plural. I wanted to recommend two new shows that I started watching. The first one is a reboot of an old Nickalodean show, iCarly. Yes, I watched, no I'm not a weirdo. Well, no more than normal, but I relay enjoyed the early show. Gibby was my favorite character, and Spencer having all of his sculptures somehow erupt into flames was a hilarious gag. The new show is more adult oriented to grab ahold of those kids that watched it when they were young and now in their twenties. There is more adult language and topics, but the still brought bag the sculptures bursting into flames gag back. Gibby has yet to show up, but I'm hoping beyond hope that he does. He is played by Noah Munck and you may know him as Naked Rob on The Goldberg's. Which let's not even get into how hilarious it is that he is Naked Rob when his running gimmick on iCarly was to take his shirt off and dance all the time. Hilarious stuff. I do miss the character of Sam, but they did an acknowledgment of why she's not on the show. She is out touring the country with a motorcycle gang, which is what she was going to do when the show ended. The reality is that Jeanette McCurdy didn't want to reprise the role, so it's highly doubtful that she will ever make a reappearance is Sam Puckett. Anyway, iCarly has new episodes every Thursday on Paramount+ formerly CBS all access.
The next show is also a kids type of show on Disney+. It is called The Mysterious Benedict Society. It is also doing weekly episode drops. I think it is every Friday, but I'm not 100% sure of that. It stars Tony Hale as Benedict an eccentric scientist that is trying to save the world from The Emergency. He has sneakily enlisted 4 kids to infiltrate a school to find the leader of the malicious organization and try to take down it's network. It is very much Lemony Snickett-ish. I am only assuming that the author is a fan of those works and molded his story in that same vane. Either way it is very entertaining. The show also has some people you may now in Kristen Schall and Ryan Hurst. Hurst may be more familiar at Opie in Sons of Anarchy, and Beta in The Walking Dead. That guy never seizes to amaze me with his talent. There is one part where the kids ask him his story and he breaks into the monologue with such depth of emotion that you simply stare at the screen without blinking in fear that you may miss something on the screen. He is definitely a highlight in the show, which is full of highlights. I won't go into more detail, because this is defiantly one of those shows you need to enjoy and live the experience as it happens and not know first hand what is going on. If you have Disney+ give it a try. I highly recommend it.
That's all I have this week. Maybe next week I'll bring back Favorite Song of the Week, but nothing has really truly grabbed me lately. Sure there are the old favorites that I always go to, but even they are just carrying me over until something really grabs me again. I'm sure it's just the state of mind I'm in with dealing with all the pressure that is caving in on me right now. Like I said, I'm trying to finish this week on a high note, so getting this out right now is part of doing that. Peace in and goodnight.
